My Lack of Posts and My Illness.

Hello WordPress Friends and Followers.

I apologize for the lack of updating for a few weeks, and everything. With finals right after Thanksgiving (give or take a few weeks) I had been stressed out about that, and then when break had started for the season, I had been stressed out even more with the printing company doing my casting cards and headshots.

Well, 2 weeks ago, I had gotten headaches, every night, almost as if they were migraines. During the last part of the 2 week time-frame, I had gotten a hard spot on my face. Needless to say, it had spread over my face, from beside my ear to my jaw line and my hair line.

Intense pain. Horrible pain. Pressure on my brain, headache/migraines, and just horrible feeling all over. Wasn’t able to get into the Doctor’s until day-after-Christmas. 

Diagnosis? Shingles. My BFF from Indiana was over, and we were supposed to head to Indiana at 5am this morning. Needless to say, I’m on anti-biotics, 5 times a day. Hydrocodone for painkillers since I’m not allowed ibuprofen or any aspirin-based pills. 2 Vitamin C’s, and another immune-boosting pill. On top of all my other vitamins (3).  For a week. 

I’m on quarantine. 

Not only can I not see my friends, I can’t go out for New Years Eve. Happy Freakin’ Holidays. 

So, I’m stuck with shoving pills down my throat, no seeing my friends, no going out (or even to walmart or Staples to get my Surface 2). No, I’m stuck in bed, watching Netflix (Adam-12 and Supernatural for sure), and yeah.

So, if I don’t post a lot, this is why. I’ve already done cried a good 10 times in the past 12 hours. 

I’m ONLY 21, and I’ve got Shingles. 

Yay. Me.

Have a great holiday everyone.


The Inspiration of My Life, the Tag of my Blog.

“Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back. Struck from a great height By someone who should know better than that.” (Dog Days are Over) by Florence + The Machine (Lungs, 2010)

Florence Welch. Florence and The Machine (or, Florence + The Machine). Dog Days are Over. Shake It Out. No Light, No Light.

You may have heard of that woman, Florence. You may have even heard of the group she created with her friend Isabella Summers. You may have heard of any of these songs on the radio, on your iPod/MP3/Radio.

If you haven’t, you will now. I present to you… the woman, the group and the song, that saved my life in High School, that continues to save my life, and is the reason for my tagline (see above in bold).

I present to you, a song that made the charts in 2010, written by Florence Welch and Isabella Summers, Dog Days Are Over. 

Back when the song had aired on radio, I stopped in my tracks. I was cleaning my room and house that day, and I stopped. I turned up my stereo. I listened to the words. The excitement. I remember googling the words, and it only took me one read-through and another listen and I knew them by heart.

I was in my Junior year of High School. I was constantly bullied like any other person in the school system. I had a great Mom, a shitty Dad who had basically ignored me my entire childhood and further on. And alas my new confession, I was a cutter from my Sophomore year in High School, past my Senior. I finally stopped for good though, awhile back. Like, once I slapped myself silly and had a fight with my Best Friend, Tricia. I don’t believe I’ll be doing that one again.

But, no other song has even came close to getting me as high as it does, as free, and no other song has saved me from my demons than ‘Dog Days Are Over’.

Florence Welch, the lead-singer (or well, the only singer really), has officially been quoted to have said this about ‘Dog Days Are Over’ :

“For me, ‘Dog Days’ symbolizes apocalyptic euphoria, chaotic freedom and running really, really fast with your eyes closed”

-Florence Welch on ‘Dog Days are Over’ meaning.

For me, Florence had successfully portrayed that symbolism into the song, and her performances on the official music video and how upbeat it really is.

When Florence + The Machine performed live at Glastonbury back in 2009, (I have to admit, geez, what a boring crowd…) It was on of my favorite live performances I’ve ever seen. No, I haven’t seen her in person (It’s a dream of mine…) but I had youtubed it, and fell in love with it. Here she is, huge stage, something like 6 inch heels. And she is RUNNING fast, chaotic, with all that euphoria. And she passed it onto me, through a radio, and through a youtube video.
When I listen to the song now, I run around like a madman (with a blue box…sorry, Doctor Who ref), and I sing it at the top of my lungs, or if I’m in my car, I will roll down all the windows, and turn it up loud, singing, driving freely, so that I can pass all my HAPPINESS onto other people. (See this video:  )

I cannot explain the joy, the happiness I get whenever I listen to her music, or just Dog Days Are Over. But, I feel as if I’m the free-est person in the entire universe.

So, Thank YOU, Florence Leontine Mary Welch, for not only saving my life in High School, but for continuing to save me further on.

I hope you someday get to read this, and I hope to someday to even get to meet you in person. Maybe even a hug. Or, the ultimate dream, to have you as a Best Friend.

Love Always,


If you’re just now following me….!

Hey y’all! 

If you’re just now following me, I’ve re-amped my ‘Where Am I’ tab, under ‘About Ellie Mae’. 

I’ve added my Official (Yes, Official) links such as; Youtube, Facebook Page, Google+, and Fanfiction account. 

My youtube, google+ and Facebook page is brand spankin’ new! So, check out the linksss!



A Lot on my Mind.

Well Hello there, world. 

Sorry I’m not sounding as if I’m bouncing off any walls or anything, although, I’m quite happy. 🙂 

Anyways. I’ve got a lot on my mind, and quite the updates. So, here they go!

  • Back in October, I attended an open casting call with a talent scout. Made the first rounds, got my photoshoot done, and had a talent picked out for the talent showcase show. What an opportunity! Anyways, at the end, for each age group, the top 25 got contracts from agencies. Course, being 21 in the 18-24 age group, I didn’t think I had so much of a big chance, but I gave it all I had. Needless to say? The end result, was a… CONTRACT! Starting January 7th, 2014, I will be signed with The Model Shop agency. ❤


  • In the meantime, I’ve been working on my weight loss still. From August 17th 2013 until November 17th, 2013, I had lost 30 pounds, and I continue to keep losing. I went from a size 18/20 in pants to a size 14/16. In dress, I went from 18/20 to a 12-16. Shirts from XL to a L and M. And like 3 underwear sizes? LOL. 


  • I have filled out a couple applications for for a video store, considering there are two locations near my college. I had an interview with one, took the test. Score right below a percentage that I needed, but ended up getting another interview at the other location. I freaking’ wowed the woman from Connecticut and then gained a second interview for next week. I need a place that will work with my college schedule and at least allow me to take part in the movie/modeling career too.


  • So, I end up suffering from chronic nightmares/night terrors. I’m a Christian, through-and-through, so I think it’s some sort of test, or some kind of thing Satan is screwing with my brain. They started last October, and ended up getting worse close to Christmastime, like it is now. I’ve seen dead chicks, hellfire, anything you can imagine, I’ve seen. Call me crazy, call me whatever you damn well please, I don’t care. But I’ve seen things I wish I could unsee. But, ya know, it’s whatever. 


I have quite a bit more on my mind, but I’ve let what I need to, go. So yeah. 

Okay, I have like, 2 hours before I have to leave for Night church. OMG. What will I ever do? Maybe play Sims 3……..? Hmmmmm.