Not sure who all will end up reading this. But anyways…
It’s 10:00pm EST, July 1st 2014. And, I dunno.
I’m just sitting here, typing this out, and trying to do my homework as well, and I just… I wanna cry. In fact, I kinda am. I don’t usually come online, talk about my problems and shit. But, I figured, I’m everybody’s therapist really. Why can’t I have one too?
That’s the wrong way to put it. I’m not LOOKING for one. I just would like to get my shit out and not keep holding it in. My boyfriend can only do so much by listening to me. I dunno, I guess I’ve just been getting angry.
I have a modeling/Acting Contract. It’s coming up 7 months out of my 12. No jobs whatsoever. I’ve even applied for them through the board.
I run a book club called “The Book Collective” and apparently, I’m the only member in it.
I go to school, trying to finish my degree in Criminal Justice, but keep getting jerked around with it. Then, after getting screwed over, I get screwed over again by being reprimanded by the college because I’m “Taking too long” with my degree. Sorry if I’m NOT MADE OF MONEY…..
I feel like I’m slowly losing my friends. I rarely get to spend ANY time with my mother. She’s with her fiance a lot, or work. Or whatever. My brother is either with his friend playing XBox, his dad’s or just doesn’t want to do diddly squat.
And then I also feel like I’m just failing at life and maybe losing my friends while I’m at it.
Okay. This rant is stupid.
I’m going to go finish my homework.