It Was Me All Along

So I’m reading Andie Mitchell’s “It Was Me All Along ” about her struggle with weight loss.

I too, struggle with weight loss. With life.

And I cannot put the book down. And I’ve cried. I’m not even half way through it yet!

While you wait for my review, check out her site

So worth it.

If she can lose 135 pounds, why can’t I lose it?





A New Year.

Well, it’s been awhile, hasn’t it. I haven’t really known what to write, to be honest, yet so much has happened since August. So, now I’m now getting to update. Yay!

Things to Update –

  • Made it to One-Year Anniversary with my amazing boyfriend ❤
  • Went to Niagara Falls, Canada.
  • Watched all of the Avengers cartoons on Netflix.
  • Looked at a house with my amazing boyfriend
  • Graduated with my Associates degree in Criminal Justice.
  • Got a new job!
  • Got my first credit card
  • Got a Beautiful promise ring from said amazing boyfriend


Should I necessarily go in order? Eh. Let’s not and say I did. 🙂

So, you might have read in a previous blog post where my boyfriend and I had made it “official” on April 26th. Our actual official anniversary is December 18th. Our Facebook official is April 26th. To clear that up. Anyways, on 12-18-14, we made it to our One-Year. I love this man to death and wouldn’t, couldn’t trade him for anything.

strip relationship


During the first week of June 4th, 5th and 6th, my mother and I went on a bus trip to Niagara Falls, Canada. Amazing place. So beautiful. I recommend going.

greetings canada card


I watched all of the “Avengers” cartoons from start to finish on Netflix. My favorite is Iron Man and Captain America. Robert Downey Jr. is a stud. ;P (Don’t Tell my Boyfriend that….although I think he already knows…)


Looked at a nice house with said amazing boyfriend. Pretty house, too big for us though 😦


Graduated with my Associates Degree in Criminal Justice. 🙂
I’ll be going to Ohio University for my Criminal Justice Bachelor’s degree in Fall 2015 with a minor in Forensics and Theatre.

graduation gibson graduation


Left my waitress job behind and got a Security Officer job. Woo!

work glasses


Applied and was granted a Discover Student Credit Card. Nice backup. I highly recommended Discover.

Got a Beautiful infinity promise ring from my amazing boyfriend. I’m in love with this ring, and I’m in Love with him. ❤


Anywho. I’ll have more later!




The Art of Friendship (Guest Post by Rynne Harrison)

Hello all! It’s Rynne again. Before I had written my first guest post, I had been asked by Ellie to write a post about our Friendship. With the little amount of time we have known each other, this is what I had to say.


Rynne Harrison
First Guest Post:
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I was asked by Ellie to write another guest post, and talk about how we met and our friendship. Well, I’ll try my best. She has no idea what I’m going to put down. So, Ellie, I hope I do you proud with this, my friend. I love you.


At holiday time, you’re supposed to become more introspective, and I’m no different. I’m taking the time to reflect on what’s happened this year, and one of the brightest spots was meeting a young woman who is so inspiring, so kind, and so courageous.  To me, she is the Bones to my Kirk, my friend, my sister, my soulmate (Friend and Sister-wise).


I first met Ellie when I reviewed a story on the Star Trek: 2009 thread of I thought she had such afinity for the characters that I wanted to read more. Yeah, I know what you’re thinking, Ellie and I met because of Star Trek. I had also written a story on the thread and posted a note on my profile that I was looking for an editor or a beta for my story. She messaged me saying that she would like to take a project on. We started messaging back and forth. Then, I think we both got tired of waiting for the message to go through. She asked me if I would web-cam with her, and reluctantly I said yes. Ever since that night, six months ago, we’ve been fast friends. We finally met back in September. It was like meeting a sister that I never knew I had.


I don’t make friends easily, but Ellie has been there for me through thick and thin. She has patched me up so many times in the months that I’ve known her, that I don’t know where I would be if it wasn’t for her. She has seen me throw things across the room, heard me say the most infantile things, helped me deal with my mother’s illness and my father’s inability to deal with life. We’ve laughed, we’ve cried, we’ve told each other secrets that we wouldn’t tell anyone else. For once, someone knows me, the real me, and I wouldn’t change it in the least.


She has given me the courage to follow my dreams, go back to college, and pursue my passion for writing and acting. She has made me want to experience my life and be a better person, and for that I am honored to call her my friend, my sister, my Bones.

The Inspiration of My Life, the Tag of my Blog.

“Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back. Struck from a great height By someone who should know better than that.” (Dog Days are Over) by Florence + The Machine (Lungs, 2010)

Florence Welch. Florence and The Machine (or, Florence + The Machine). Dog Days are Over. Shake It Out. No Light, No Light.

You may have heard of that woman, Florence. You may have even heard of the group she created with her friend Isabella Summers. You may have heard of any of these songs on the radio, on your iPod/MP3/Radio.

If you haven’t, you will now. I present to you… the woman, the group and the song, that saved my life in High School, that continues to save my life, and is the reason for my tagline (see above in bold).

I present to you, a song that made the charts in 2010, written by Florence Welch and Isabella Summers, Dog Days Are Over. 

Back when the song had aired on radio, I stopped in my tracks. I was cleaning my room and house that day, and I stopped. I turned up my stereo. I listened to the words. The excitement. I remember googling the words, and it only took me one read-through and another listen and I knew them by heart.

I was in my Junior year of High School. I was constantly bullied like any other person in the school system. I had a great Mom, a shitty Dad who had basically ignored me my entire childhood and further on. And alas my new confession, I was a cutter from my Sophomore year in High School, past my Senior. I finally stopped for good though, awhile back. Like, once I slapped myself silly and had a fight with my Best Friend, Tricia. I don’t believe I’ll be doing that one again.

But, no other song has even came close to getting me as high as it does, as free, and no other song has saved me from my demons than ‘Dog Days Are Over’.

Florence Welch, the lead-singer (or well, the only singer really), has officially been quoted to have said this about ‘Dog Days Are Over’ :

“For me, ‘Dog Days’ symbolizes apocalyptic euphoria, chaotic freedom and running really, really fast with your eyes closed”

-Florence Welch on ‘Dog Days are Over’ meaning.

For me, Florence had successfully portrayed that symbolism into the song, and her performances on the official music video and how upbeat it really is.

When Florence + The Machine performed live at Glastonbury back in 2009, (I have to admit, geez, what a boring crowd…) It was on of my favorite live performances I’ve ever seen. No, I haven’t seen her in person (It’s a dream of mine…) but I had youtubed it, and fell in love with it. Here she is, huge stage, something like 6 inch heels. And she is RUNNING fast, chaotic, with all that euphoria. And she passed it onto me, through a radio, and through a youtube video.
When I listen to the song now, I run around like a madman (with a blue box…sorry, Doctor Who ref), and I sing it at the top of my lungs, or if I’m in my car, I will roll down all the windows, and turn it up loud, singing, driving freely, so that I can pass all my HAPPINESS onto other people. (See this video:  )

I cannot explain the joy, the happiness I get whenever I listen to her music, or just Dog Days Are Over. But, I feel as if I’m the free-est person in the entire universe.

So, Thank YOU, Florence Leontine Mary Welch, for not only saving my life in High School, but for continuing to save me further on.

I hope you someday get to read this, and I hope to someday to even get to meet you in person. Maybe even a hug. Or, the ultimate dream, to have you as a Best Friend.

Love Always,


Why Dating May Not Seem Such a Bad Idea….After all.

First of All – 

Happy Veteran’s Day to all of those who have served, who are still currently serving and those who have given their lives up so that we may be free.

Have YOU Thanked a Veteran today?

Anyways – I spent the morning walking in the parade in town, handing out flags to the public. Yes, it was so cold, my fingers froze and my nose ran. But it was just a really great experience to be walking among the men and women who have served, feeling like I was doing my own duty.

I got to meet one of my cousins I’ve never even met on my Dad’s side of the family. Great guy. Then, there was another guy who’s name I’ve sadly forgotten. And then there’s this other guy. A few years older than me. Really… cute? If I say adorable, I dunno how a guy would react to that. Anyways. He seems really great. He’s single as well.

I mean – don’t get me wrong. I’m not in a huge rush to get into a relationship and get serious. But if it happens, it happens. I mean, I still plan on living my life how I want, living my dreams. I’d just like to be with someone who won’t purposely try to hold me back, tell me I can’t do something. I want someone who can/will tell me that I can do anything, if I put my mind and heart into it. I’d like support (not necessarily financial, but like a “you can do it!” kind of support) in things I’d like to do, just like I want to be able to support them in their own dreams. Be their Team cheer-person. Cheesy, I know.

I mean, I don’t want some poor example of the men in some of my distant family who don’t know how to treat any female with respect, who hinders others from their goals, and are controlling. I don’t want an alcoholic. My Father is/was one. I don’t want that same experience. I deserve better.

Someone who know’s how to have fun without thinking he’s the best thing out there. Someone who wouldn’t cheat on me, or lie to me. I’d rather you tell me the truth about everything, than be lied to. If I was in a relationship or marriage, and the other person didn’t love me anymore, then I want to be told. Not lied to, or cheated on.

I don’t want to be controlled. I wanna be talked to like a normal human being. Because I am.

But anyways. Maybe I’ll go by the guys’ work and I dunno, give him my numbers. Take a shot. Won’t know unless I try.



What I’ve been doing – (While away from WordPress…)

Hello All! – 

Yes, it’s me. Again. I realize my blog was thrown for a loop. Here I am, posting every day it seems, then I go what, almost two weeks without? Yeah, Life happened. Well, it always happens, but Reality caught up. As much as I don’t recognize “Reality”, it did. My views on Reality, is that when you finally see Reality and live in it, you’re no longer you. 

It sounds ubber confusing, I know, I know. It’s just, a lot of my family used to be Happy. Until they focused on the crappy reality, and now, they’re either depressed and alcoholics, workaholics, rude and angry, just to name a few emotions. Yeah, I start worrying on how I’m gonna pay for my college education (btw, I graduate in 2 Semesters!), and everybody always says that $10,000 is not a lot of money. Hello! I’ve never SEEN $10,000 in my LIFE. Never. And now, that debit is in MY name. Don’t even ask me about the Department of Education. 

Cause I’ll rip that entire thing to shreds. Freakin’ rip it. 

Anyways – 
Reality = Bad. Don’t focus on Reality. You become this weird angry person. Unless it’s your cuppa tea. 

JingleBells, JingleBells, JingleAllTheWay…….

Sorry, I needed a random break-line. Cute song. 

While away from WordPress, I have; 

  • Participated in Halloween festivities by Dressing up and LARPing. (Sorta.)
  • Have watched Felicia Day’s episode of ‘Supernatural – 9×04 “Slumber Party”
    One Word – “Ding Dong, Bitches.”
  • Recently gotten back into WoW. For the non-nerds who don’t understand… World of Warcraft. Please. Get into it. Addicting. (Well, so is STO [Star Trek Online]…) Felicia Day even plays. Word.
  • Gone through insane Auditions and a couple productions
  • Studied a dissected frog. Poor thing. 
  • Put together like 2 presentations on Criminalistics I topics. (Hair and Fiber Examinations and Typed Document Examinations. Go me!)
  • Lost another Mother. She was like, my other mother growing up. Technically, she’s one of my BFF’s Mom’s, but hey, her parents became my other parents. I went to her showing on Thursday night, but since her death, I’ve been thrown for a complete loop. ♥ Rest in Peace; Diana Sue Hayes Cline.♥ 
  • Geek-ed out with BlizzCon2013. Check out or more info. (Of course, it was a virtual Live! thing for me. I’m hoping for SupernaturalCon, and ComicCon in a year or two. Who’s been to any Cons? Comment and tell me YOUR experience. 🙂
  • Made my own CoffeeExpresso milkshake to my brothers’ Chicken Enchilada’s. Yummy on both behalf’s. See a post coming soon for recipes. 
  • AND – I’ve been drawing up Ideas for my own Webshow, hosted by me! Also, of course, featuring my amazing friends, and hopefully some other awesome people. :3


Wowee. A lot, right? What have you all been up to in the meantime?


XO. Ellie-Mae

Guest Blog #1 – Rynne Harrison

Rynne’s Random Blog #1

I’ve been asked by Ellie to be a guest blogger, so here I am. Hope this is random enough for ya.

When I first started my own blog, and told some people about it, the first thing that was said was, “Is your life really that interesting?” To that, I replied, “No, it isn’t. It’s for my writing.” Which is true. It is for my writing. Yes, I’m one of those. I write fanfiction. No, I don’t write Twilight Fanfiction, or Dr. Who, or even Supernatural. I write Star Trek fanfiction. Yes, you heard me right. I am a Trekker. But not only that, I’m a child of the science-fiction genre.

It’s taken me over twenty years to admit it, but it’s true. My first experience that I remember was sitting in a dark movie theatre and watching the first scene of Star Wars, the classic trilogy. My three-year-old eyes taking in the blockade runner racing across the screen with the massive Star Destroyer lumbering after it, laser blasts hitting the hull of the small ship. Seeing the characters in life and death situations, and finally beholding the terrifying vision of Darth Vader, probably one of the best movie villains of all time was a life-changing experience. When I saw all of it, was when I fell in love with the movies. Not only did I fall in love with the movie itself, but I fell in love with the craft of making movies, especially science-fiction. Let me explain.

Making movies is not only a job, but it’s an art form. It’s not just a process, but it’s a journey. Crafting a character takes time, skill, patience, and a little bit of luck. The only reason why I know this, is that I did some classes in college and a play, so I am, by no means, a professional. To see what goes on behind the scenes is magic to me.

To me, life is like the movies. I know…I know. You’re probably thinking what does this person know. She’s not even a professional. Well, before ya’ll go off on me, let me defend myself.

Life is a journey, a process, if you will. No, it’s not scripted, but if you figure things out just enough, you can make that journey worthwhile. Yes, there may be bumps in the road, and situations that you don’t know how to handle, but if you think of yourself as a character, it helps you thing of ways to cope through some of the hardest things that you have to face.

My happiest place on earth, growing up or even now, is sitting in a darkened movie theater or my darkened living room, and watching the heroics of Luke Skywalker, Princess Leia, or Han Solo, or the rebellious antics of my favorite captain of the Starship Enterprise, James T. Kirk, (personally I like Chris Pine’s version, but then again, I just like to look at Mr. Pine, but the acting ability that he has is definitely a plus), and the rest of the crew, or the seductive nature of Gary Oldman’s Dracula.

Life is one giant action sequence. You have to grab hold and ride it for all it’s worth. Don’t be afraid, because unlike the movies, you don’t get a second take.


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Ah – The Single Life. (Pros and Cons. Mainly the Pros…)

Ah – The Single Life. 

I have maybe TWO -or three- words of advice on potentially dating someone you’ve liked/loved for about 7-8 years, or well, anybody really.

1. Don’t involve your friends. Really.
     a) Why? Dude… Friends just… Wow. Yeah, some -if not most- should be really supportive. Unless you’re like me, then they’re really supportive, telling you to hurry up and ask them to dinner or whatever. When you FINALLY do -for me, after 8 long years- they’re happy at first. Then, they get jealous. They tell you they’re happy, but you can hardly get a word out of them anymore. Then it affects you, because you become irritated at them, and everybody else can feel your irritation, and it becomes a freakin-cycle. 

       b.) This goes for BOTH sexes – Male and Female. 


2. If it sounds too GOOD to be True? – Sadly, it probably is. 
      a.) But, don’t take my word for it! (Thank you, Geordi LaForge. Oi, wait, sorry, Levar Burton…) 

       b.) So, you’ve liked this girl, guy, alien, whatever. You’re on the first go-out, or whatever it’s called these days. You think they’re the type to listen to this certain type of music (especially types around their ages, or style. For mine, I thought; REO Speedwagon, Led Zeppelin, AC/DC…) and then you find out it’s the COMPLETE opposite of what even looks like their style or their age, and what you originally thought. And the whole movie/show thing. Hobbies and Interests are usually equal, if not at least a little balanced out. BUT – when you hear that there’s “no way you could get me to…” or “Persuade me to…” Well, the door of compromise really does seem like it’s closed, doesn’t it?


Fact is – a Relationship or Friendship of any kind? It requires Compromise. If there is none there, – Move on (and don’t forget to ‘Live Long and Prosper’)….


3. If you don’t feel it, Move on.
     a.) Like I’ve said, I have felt this strong emotion/feeling for this beautiful man. Yes – he is still so beautiful to me. His soul, firstly. I’m not highly spiritual (though I believe in God, Heaven, Hell…etc), but I have a way with emotions/feelings/etc. He’s beautiful, and well, I still have a feeling for him. I’d still like to be friends. But, I had to realize (and maybe it was a good thing), that there wasn’t any compromise. We both are seemingly at two diferent stages in our lives. 

I’m ONLY 21. I haven’t lived yet, damn-it. I have a shite ton left to do. A HUGE-ass bucketlist to finish before I’m like 30. Then I’ll work on my 2nd List then…. But, I thought I was Oh-So-Willing to give everything up that I myself wanted, settle down, have a kid or two of my own.

But I’m not. 

I wanna flight-tend, bar-tend, Perform, Act (yes, I know, almost the same), learn new tricks like play the piano or guitar. Sing. Do what I want, when I want, without having to ask. I wanna see Pompeii, Stonehenge, entirety of London, Europe, Ireland, Scotland, England (yes yes, I know), Germany, Canada, and Hell – the REST of the United States and maybe twice! 

So much to do, so little time.

It IS hard for me though. Seven – eight – years of this particular feeling is not going to go away so quick. Not when this person has made me so giddy and smiley and laughy. All that creep-tastic jazz. 

But, I gotta do what’s right for me. Find someone willing to live with MY choices and me theirs, and share each others’ dreams. 


I wish I could say the right things to myself. But I can’t. I just know what I CAN do.


Ellie Mae.


PS: By the way, I’m open to any conversation of agreement, disagreement, or commegreement (Comment, basically), whether harsh, good, or just plain Okay. 🙂